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minian, the same person whom I wrote against in my Epistles of Faith, in answer to his own letter.

The writings which I paid for were not signed. The keys were kept by the landlord; and Mr. Rhine and the landlord occupied the premises. But at the year's end the landlord came to me for the rent; which I refused to pay, as I had never received the keys, nor used the premises, nor were the writings signed. However, the landlord told some of my friends that he had laid a deep scheme for me. A copy of a writ was sent me; and my landlord boasted that I should not like to go to trial, because of the addition to my name. He had been an eyewitness of my distress of soul at his house, when the affair of my name was first discovered; therefore his lawyer's letter, and his other writings, were written to me by the name of Huntington: but, in order to open the old wound, Mr. Hunt was put at the bottom by itself. This affair was referred to a counsellor; and the decision was, that I should pay eighteen guineas to my landlord for rent and altering his house, and my lawyer had twelve guineas for his labour. Thus, reader, thou seest that some good people have taken an advantage of this name of mine, and have gained a penny by it.

My builder said that he would have altered the premises for the materials; but it cost me

more. While the place was building I men tioned it to a person, who gave ten guineas; but who told me that as I was very poor, and had a large family, it would be more to the person's satisfaction that I should make use of it for my own family; nay, desired me to keep it as my own; but I gave it to the building. The lawsuit with the rioters cost twelve guineas, which was left for me to pay. A person gave me the money, with a caution not to pay the lawyer with it, but to keep the money for my own use; but I paid the lawyer with it. So it cost me forty pounds at the first; twelve guineas for the law-suit, near seven pounds the alteration, halfa-guinea the writings, and thirty guineas since! Notwithstanding which, I am represented as one who has dealt very unjustly by the landlord. But God's word commands me to preach the gospel faithfully, and to live by it, without building for other people to appropriate it as their own private property. When I went down to open that meeting, four of my friends told me I was deceived in my landlord; but I knew the word of God was not always sent to save those who opened a door to receive it. Simon the Pharisee opened a door to receive Christ; but it was Mary Magdalene that ran away with the salvation, while Simon added sin to sin. King Henry the Eighth let in the gospel, but he was no prophet; and this is the case with many in

our days. However, I bless God for this. It has taught me an excellent lesson, and I hope will teach me in future to take care of myself. But to return:

I am now to shew that other people have taken liberties to add various names besides my addition. Some have called me parson Sack; and it became so common, that a stranger could not find me out by any other. In London some professors have called me a mystic, others an Antinomian, others a fool, and some a madman. Thus I go by various names, which are conferred on me without my leave; though some will not allow me to add to my own.

But alas! it is not the name that gives the offence; it is the unmerited grace of God that has made the change: if it was not, they would not remember against me former iniquities, but admire the change, as others have done, and so glorify God in me, Gal. i. 24. The primitive disciples did not rejoice because Paul had persecuted them aforetime, but because he then preached the faith.

But, if my reader be a tender soul, he may be rather displeased at my writing so full an account of the base part of my life; and think that I should have acted a more prudent part had I refrained publishing it to the world. Thou dost not think wisely concerning this; for you must know that God opens his bountiful hand so as

to satisfy every living soul; and I believe that God uses me at this time to feed several different sorts of people.

For instance, there are many who have got a little human wisdom in their heads, but are destitute of the grace of God. These have taken their seat in the scorner's chair, and "make a man an offender for a word. They lie in wait for him that reproveth in the gate,” Isa. xxix. 21; and laugh at a low expression, " even when the poor and needy speaketh right," Isa. xxxii. 7. These watch to catch something out of my mouth, that they may have something to accuse me of; and, if I have made a breach in grammar, or dropt a low expression, then these dogs have barked at the truth, and run off with the bones, while the just have sucked out the marrow. Thus "he feedeth upon ashes; a deceived heart hath turned him aside;" that is, he is turned aside to vain jangling, 1 Tim. i. 6; so that "he cannot deliver his soul" from criticisms; "nor say, is there not a lie in my right hand?” Isa. xliv. 20, while he holds it; for "the kingdom of God is not in word," however fitly spoken, "but in power," however mean the language. reader sees how these lean kine are fed in the meadow, and how ill favoured they look after they have tried to eat up the well favoured.

Thus my

There are others, who have sat under sound gospel ministers until they have got a speculative

knowledge of the plan of the covenant of grace in their heads; and as they never felt the plague of their own hearts, nor saw the majesty of God in the vision of faith, they have nothing to humble them; therefore they are lifted up with pride, and vainly imagine that they are fit to mount the pulpit. These endeavour to get a few words of the Greek and Hebrew, and then fall to pulling the translation of the Bible to pieces; which work has made deists of thousands, plundered the consciences of many weaklings in faith, and staggered the hope of hundreds. Some good men, too, who have gone on at this work, are not aware of the mischief they have done by it. I have seen enough to embolden me thus to write.

These young bucks of the first head, having picked out a few words of the original languages, set themselves up as critics, and go from place to place to make their remarks upon preachers. And this spouting frenzy sets them to dressing their hair, and covering their carcasses with grave apparel; and then their old father the devil persuades them that they are within one step of orders. When these gentry come to hear an heartfelt experience delivered, and find that the godly admire it, they are offended at it, and immediately try to pick something amiss out of the preacher's former life, and to watch for his future halting. If God, in order to feed these

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